It's hard to get up and feel excited about the day ahead when you have been let down, time and again, each day. You know that's not the right frame of mind to be in, and you can try to dance all you want to (literally and figuratively) shake it off. And not being able to exercise + eating too much out of boredom = feeling very blah and blegh. Need to find ways to keep my brain active, because it is seriously rotting. Rotting!!
BUT I had a 'moment' while getting ready for work this morning when I just had to stop and marvel at something that caught my eye and for a few minutes, the world didn't seem so bad after all :) I will be ok. I just have to be patient. Good things take time.
Wednesday, 29 April 2009
Monday, 27 April 2009
OK? Just OK???
When you tell someone (in a really excited voice) who's supposed to be really important in your life that you will see them in a couple of days or so, and all you get is a dull ok, what the heck are you supposed to think???
Friday, 24 April 2009
Slumming
I finally got around to watching slumdog millionaire and can see why it won so many awards. Quite a unique concept and significantly, such a feel-good ending. Who wouldn't walk out of that movie cinema all happy-happy?
Even though I'm supposed to be feeling happy-happy, I'm feeling lonely. And who do I have to tell about this? A blog that no one reads.
Even though I'm supposed to be feeling happy-happy, I'm feeling lonely. And who do I have to tell about this? A blog that no one reads.
Wednesday, 22 April 2009
"Always look on the bright side of life"
[Written Tuesday, 21 April 2009]
Know the song?
Okay, so maybe yesterday’s post was not exactly bright and sunny and inspriring. If you subscribe to the belief that good things happen to those who see the bright and positive side of everything, then I suppose I should concentrate on the happy, smiley things today! :)
I’ve been surfing the web for ideas and have come across a whole community of bloggers whose sites are created purely for posting information and details planned for their big day. I’m tempted to start the same. I’m thinking that the amount of information that I am about to accumulate is going to be massive. I suppose that in time, that is where our friends will be able to refer to get information as well. Would that be too cliché/girly? Note: to discuss with Ben! :D
The web is such a useful resource tool, but nothing can beat the feeling of actually touching or seeing what you are looking at. So it’s going to be a crazy weekend for me when I got home for a weekend at the start of May, as I will have to try and cover as much ground and get as much information as possible. With my mummy! Am also in desperate need of a haircut. It’s pretty disgusting at the mo…
Played futsal on Sunday, when I really should have tried to hold out for another week, but a whole week of inactivity was getting to be more than I could stand. Have to be careful; don’t want standing (literally) to become an issue for me. \’.’/ But playing makes me happy, and scoring goals makes me happier! Sigh, what’s a girl to do? :)
Had dinner with a friend last night who’d lost her voice over the weekend. We had dinner at Nagomi Shabu Shabu, which is sort of like a posher version of the Chinese hotpot, with individual pots. Good stuff, lots of fun, way too much food!
I’ve just been given work so it’s time to stop writing – for now!
Know the song?
Okay, so maybe yesterday’s post was not exactly bright and sunny and inspriring. If you subscribe to the belief that good things happen to those who see the bright and positive side of everything, then I suppose I should concentrate on the happy, smiley things today! :)
I’ve been surfing the web for ideas and have come across a whole community of bloggers whose sites are created purely for posting information and details planned for their big day. I’m tempted to start the same. I’m thinking that the amount of information that I am about to accumulate is going to be massive. I suppose that in time, that is where our friends will be able to refer to get information as well. Would that be too cliché/girly? Note: to discuss with Ben! :D
The web is such a useful resource tool, but nothing can beat the feeling of actually touching or seeing what you are looking at. So it’s going to be a crazy weekend for me when I got home for a weekend at the start of May, as I will have to try and cover as much ground and get as much information as possible. With my mummy! Am also in desperate need of a haircut. It’s pretty disgusting at the mo…
Played futsal on Sunday, when I really should have tried to hold out for another week, but a whole week of inactivity was getting to be more than I could stand. Have to be careful; don’t want standing (literally) to become an issue for me. \’.’/ But playing makes me happy, and scoring goals makes me happier! Sigh, what’s a girl to do? :)
Had dinner with a friend last night who’d lost her voice over the weekend. We had dinner at Nagomi Shabu Shabu, which is sort of like a posher version of the Chinese hotpot, with individual pots. Good stuff, lots of fun, way too much food!
I’ve just been given work so it’s time to stop writing – for now!
Of expectations
[Written Monday, 20 April 2009]
I must not be updating my blog often enough if Ben is telling me to write articles while I’m bored at work, to be uploaded online when I have internet access! Lol.
Since it is inevitable that I’m going to start blogging constantly about my big news, what better time to start than when I’m at my wit’s end out of boredom.:)
I have not been feeling extremely positive of late, although this should be one of the happiest times of my life. My swap to a new department has kicked off with my being assigned to another team that does completely unrelated work to what my new department is supposed to do. Coupled with the fact that I spend half my days at work staring into space with no internet connection, it has been a very uninspiring 3 weeks, to say the least. Very far from the career rejuvenation that I’d envisaged.
The highlights have been talking to Ben, my sister and some other friends when I get the chance. I miss my sister. It would have been superb to have her on hand to help me with the task at hand. But so far, it’s been pretty cool to be able to talk to mum about some of the things. It sounds like it’s going to be a fair bit of work, and would be great if I could afford to take a month off to be based where the event will be, get all the prelim planning out of the way and get it off my mind. It would be even more fantastic if Ben could be here for that month so that the decisions could be made together. A girl can dream, right?
Speaking of dreams…
When I was younger I’d always thought that I would have a big white with lots of people – an über-grand affair in a big ballroom or banquet hall. I suppose it’s what I grew up seeing and knowing. And culturally, traditionally, that is what is expected. By your family, by their friends, by onlookers. I haven’t attended many in my adult life – at last count, ONE (1) that wasn’t family-related - but the more I think about it, the more I’d rather have something that reflects my personality (personal and personable (hopefully), a little bit serious, a little fun/crazy, and bending the rules *just a little bit*).
I wouldn’t say small, as I have many people I count as friends whom I would love to be there to share in the fun. Then again, I don’t want massive either. Because then it just becomes extremely impersonal, you don’t get the chance to have any semblance of a decent conversation with a single soul, and the worst part I think is not knowing half the people in attendance.
No doubt, whilst I have my dreams and expectations, so do the other parties involved in this event. Some may have had their own dreams and expectations of this event for longer than I have.
Heritage, culture and tradition dictate that I be an obedient child, adhere to the wishes of others, but I’ve always had a rebellious streak. ;) So let’s just hope that the coming months are as painless as possible!
I must not be updating my blog often enough if Ben is telling me to write articles while I’m bored at work, to be uploaded online when I have internet access! Lol.
Since it is inevitable that I’m going to start blogging constantly about my big news, what better time to start than when I’m at my wit’s end out of boredom.:)
I have not been feeling extremely positive of late, although this should be one of the happiest times of my life. My swap to a new department has kicked off with my being assigned to another team that does completely unrelated work to what my new department is supposed to do. Coupled with the fact that I spend half my days at work staring into space with no internet connection, it has been a very uninspiring 3 weeks, to say the least. Very far from the career rejuvenation that I’d envisaged.
The highlights have been talking to Ben, my sister and some other friends when I get the chance. I miss my sister. It would have been superb to have her on hand to help me with the task at hand. But so far, it’s been pretty cool to be able to talk to mum about some of the things. It sounds like it’s going to be a fair bit of work, and would be great if I could afford to take a month off to be based where the event will be, get all the prelim planning out of the way and get it off my mind. It would be even more fantastic if Ben could be here for that month so that the decisions could be made together. A girl can dream, right?
Speaking of dreams…
When I was younger I’d always thought that I would have a big white with lots of people – an über-grand affair in a big ballroom or banquet hall. I suppose it’s what I grew up seeing and knowing. And culturally, traditionally, that is what is expected. By your family, by their friends, by onlookers. I haven’t attended many in my adult life – at last count, ONE (1) that wasn’t family-related - but the more I think about it, the more I’d rather have something that reflects my personality (personal and personable (hopefully), a little bit serious, a little fun/crazy, and bending the rules *just a little bit*).
I wouldn’t say small, as I have many people I count as friends whom I would love to be there to share in the fun. Then again, I don’t want massive either. Because then it just becomes extremely impersonal, you don’t get the chance to have any semblance of a decent conversation with a single soul, and the worst part I think is not knowing half the people in attendance.
No doubt, whilst I have my dreams and expectations, so do the other parties involved in this event. Some may have had their own dreams and expectations of this event for longer than I have.
Heritage, culture and tradition dictate that I be an obedient child, adhere to the wishes of others, but I’ve always had a rebellious streak. ;) So let’s just hope that the coming months are as painless as possible!
Tuesday, 21 April 2009
Frustration
I can't seem to shake this horrible frustrated feeling I've been experiencing for the last couple of weeks, but it's much stronger today. It's the feeling that I'm being really unproductive and useless, and that there are far better (and more fun) things I could be doing with my time. I don't mind if it was sucky work, but I'm doing crap all at work.
Saturday, 18 April 2009
Involvement
Excerpt from pg 62 of "Wedding Planning for Dummies", which touches on the possibility of having your wedding ceremony at home:
"The home works well as a venue when friends and relatives are breaking down your door to help in some way, shape or form and everyone gets involved. An 'all hands on deck' celebration can forge friendships and repair broken ones."
Ok. I'm done rolling around on the floor laughing hysterically and can breathe now. I want to believe that. I really do!
"The home works well as a venue when friends and relatives are breaking down your door to help in some way, shape or form and everyone gets involved. An 'all hands on deck' celebration can forge friendships and repair broken ones."
Ok. I'm done rolling around on the floor laughing hysterically and can breathe now. I want to believe that. I really do!
Monday, 13 April 2009
Unexpected
Two things have happened so far this morning:
1. Sometimes, the most unlikely people can surprise you with the smallest gestures to show they care - and you are put on a massive guilt trip for not being very nice to them in the past...
2. I was told to ask a certain person for clarification on something, supposedly because she was very helpful, and instead got my head bitten off. Brill.
1. Sometimes, the most unlikely people can surprise you with the smallest gestures to show they care - and you are put on a massive guilt trip for not being very nice to them in the past...
2. I was told to ask a certain person for clarification on something, supposedly because she was very helpful, and instead got my head bitten off. Brill.
Sunday, 5 April 2009
2 weeks and a day
It has been, for the most part, a pretty good fortnight. The big news has been broken to most of my extended family as of this morning.
The first 3 days in my new department has been interesting, and tomorrow I start on an actual engagement. I've spent the weekend attending farewells for Stefan; it's been a blast hanging out with him and Jeremy.
We played paintball yesterday - my first time ever - and I have yet another beautiful bruise on my shin. Looks like it's going to be dark grey or black stockings for me for the next fortnight. Lovely!
I am missing Melbourne (and more the point, Ben) a great deal. The weather there was gorgeous while I was on holiday, and the food was so familiar and comforting. I can't wait to go back.
The first 3 days in my new department has been interesting, and tomorrow I start on an actual engagement. I've spent the weekend attending farewells for Stefan; it's been a blast hanging out with him and Jeremy.
We played paintball yesterday - my first time ever - and I have yet another beautiful bruise on my shin. Looks like it's going to be dark grey or black stockings for me for the next fortnight. Lovely!
I am missing Melbourne (and more the point, Ben) a great deal. The weather there was gorgeous while I was on holiday, and the food was so familiar and comforting. I can't wait to go back.
Thursday, 2 April 2009
A wonderful feeling
It's a wonderful feeling to know that you are going to spend your life with the person you love. And you look forward to a future filled with excitement and adventure.
It's a wonderful feeling to know that your friends and family can be happy for you and share the moment with you or will at least attempt to share your excitement and joy (and reality to know that some won't or can't be happy for you).
It's just plain wonderful to be able to revel in the moment and feel what you feel.
It's a wonderful feeling to know that your friends and family can be happy for you and share the moment with you or will at least attempt to share your excitement and joy (and reality to know that some won't or can't be happy for you).
It's just plain wonderful to be able to revel in the moment and feel what you feel.
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