Goodbye to a friendship

So, my friend(?). It seems I must say goodbye to you and our friendship now before I drive myself crazy. It is clear you don't care about the loss of this friendship - perhaps too common an occurance in your life for it to be a big issue anymore - so I really must learn to let it go. To stop talking to you. To stop wishing that we could spend more time together, even though it was you who expressed that wish first.

So this is my goodbye.

My new babies! Hehe

People are usually shocked when they find out that I play futsal. For some guys, it's simply incomprehensible that a girl should play at all. These are the sort of guys who usually give me a hard time when I play with them. To other guys, it's more because "no offence, but you don't really look like the type". No offence taken, as long as they let me join in the fun :)

The same thing happens when I walk into sports stores looking for futsal boots. I had to do this over the weekend because my beloved pair which I'd been using for more than 2 years were at the end of their useful life. After a year with these boots, I'd already decided I needed a new pair, but I had to buy an adult's (men's) size and they were a bit too big for me. I got injured a fair bit before I realised that it was because of my boots. For the competition that we eventually won in July this year, I decided to revert back to my old boots, and those babies worked their magic :D They are a kid's size, and therefore the narrower cut was better suited to my small feet.

I know they look pretty decent still, apart from the inner heel lining falling apart. Truth of the matter is, the soles were falling off, but I was so determined to wear them that even on the days of the tournament itself, I added more super glue to keep the soles on!

Back to my original point... I walked into a few stores this past weekend (and at other times in the past) asking for the kids' futsal boots range. The sales people usually think that I'm buying for a kid brother or something. Even when I try the shoes on, they don't get it. Take yesterday, for example, I tried on this pair.

Cool or what? ;)

They look pretty good for futsal boots, and good enough that they can be worn as casual shoes (if I was desperate coz really, the light coloured soles that are characteristic of futsal boots are such a dead giveaway that you are wearing casual or street shoes). The girl who was attending to me kept telling me that they looked really good, especially for ... walking around. Excuse me? I proceeded to ask her which other models had the size I wanted. And she pointed out every other shoe in the futsal range and kept saying, 'oh this one looks good, and this one is kacak too'... (kacak is Malay for handsome or generally good-looking) Since she said they looked good, I asked if they had those shoes in my size and she said no. Sighs... So why would you show them to me??? And moreover, the next column of shoes were the proper street shoes from that brand. If I wanted a street shoe, wouldn't I just have asked for those ones? Pffftt... It was beyond my understanding.

Anyway, just thought I'd share the burdens and the end-product ;)

No sleep

Isn't it funny how you can be on such an extreme high one week and on a real low the next? At the start of August and til about mid way through I was feeling so good (thanks, in part to winning the futsal tournament that we lost last year). The now I'm feeling so down that all I want to do is dig a big hole and stay in it and talk to only a handful of people. Who, incidentally, are too busy for me.

Tonight I didn't want to go out. But a supposed friend insisted, so I did. I didn't plan to stay long - latest midnight or so - I need to establish a better sleep pattern otherwise insomnia is going to rule my life. It already has started to do so. Yet the friend, well-meaning as he/she is, will not let me leave. If someone tells me they would like to leave early and have been getting very little sleep and would like to do what I've just described, I'd tell them to go home and rest. But no, that's not what I got tonight. And when I drove home in the rain and told said friend how dangerous the drive was (half asleep, flooded roads, heavy rain, fallen branches), said friend laughed. WTF.

And of course now I'm too pissed off to sleep. 3.30am. Well done, friend. Guess you got what you wanted. Is it possible for people to be so well-meaning that they become selfish? I think they can.

No excuse for not updating :)

I haven't disappeared; I just spend most of my spare time playing sport now or indulging in my new hobby - jewellery-making. My aim is to get good enough to make some for some side income. 'Side income' because I'm not quite at the stage where I can create and churn out countless designs, and also because I'm conscious that it could become less fun if it becomes what I rely on for all my income, though I must admit that at this stage, I wish work didn't get in the way of my hobby/ies! ;)

I really indulged myself today. When I went to the shop to pick up some beads and stuff I'd ordered ahead of time, I decided to get (i.e. invest in) some proper, really good tools. They cost a bit for 4 pliers, but they are stainless steel, and the extremely basic ones that I got as part of the course materials from my classes had begun to rust, no matter how well I looked after them. Hopefully these will last a few years (I wouldn't go so far as to say that I would not need to replace them at all anymore).

I have managed to go home and see my family twice already in the past 3 weeks (to make up for the months that I have not been able to go home) and will go home again next weekend. My sister also came to visit for a week while on her summer vacation. Too bad it was such a short break for her! :(

I hope to start updating this blog more frequently from now on. In the meantime, here are some of my latest creations :)

Coffee, anyone?

True Brew

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